I’ve spent today on and off in tears … I kept getting teary-eyed at work today, and finally almost broke down in the office with my ‘old’ supervisor Sally. What happened to send me over the top today? Partly my own fault … and I’m kicking myself for my own stupidity … I had 1 1/2 hours overtime approved before my shift started today, but I thought I’d written it down for after my shift, meaning I essentially ‘no-showed’ for my overtime … so I arrive to the news that I can now not request overtime for the next month! Seeing as that was to be my ‘saviour’ for my latest financial situation, that was the last straw for me … I’ve been in an emotional meltdown ever since 😦
I don’t think it was helped whatsoever by the fact I haven’t been sleeping properly compliments of my trapped nerve/neck pain – but I can’t get in for an appointment until Tuesday afternoon to get that manipulated back into place. Anyway, I decided my state of mind at work wasn’t helping anyone, so I made an appointment to see my local GP, who was excellent – he’s sending me for extra blood tests for other things, as I’ve also been having problems with swollen feet and ankles this week, and my blood pressure was quite high tonight. He wants to take it again in a couple of weeks once my back/neck pain has subsided, and I’m less stressed … he then looked at me and asked if I was depressed … I promptly started getting teary-eyed and upset again, then explained that I had been under a lot of stress before Christmas financially not being able to buy food basically for 2 months, and that I’m stressing that I’m getting back in that same position again, not to mention my housing situation. I thought I’d been doing really well holding it all in, but it’s been lurking away in the background obviously, and today the floodgates opened in earnest!
Anyway, he’s given me a certificate to keep me out of work until after next Tuesday … should give me time to get back on an even keel again – and he’s also given me some Voltaren tablets to help ease the pain a bit, and which will hopefully give me a better night’s sleep than I’ve been getting now.
On the other side, Sally says she’s going away for almost 2 months, and was considering getting a housesitter in to look after her place (in East Bentleigh, not too far from where I am now, and where I used to live when I first moved to Aussie) – so a new possibility would be that I give my notice in here, pack up everything into storage, and look after her place while she’s away (starting from next month, I guess). That means I’d also have my bond money back from here, which is pretty much $1,000, before I moved into the new place, which takes the financial pressure off a bit. It also means I’d be living basically rent-free for that time, giving me chance to get back on my feet again. Anyway, it’s an option to consider, I guess – my head is almost splitting tonight with a headache (from the stress, I think), so I’ll have to think it over again when I’m thinking more rationally.
Sorry for blurting this all out tonight – I was going to write an “I’ll be back soon” post, but then I thought it would be good to just get it all off my chest … and if there’s nothing else about me, it’s that I’m 100% honest and up-front on here – dirty laundry and all.
Anyway, I’ll be taking it easy over the next day or three, so don’t worry if I’m not posting or commenting much – I have much to mull over … Mum, expect a phone call from me over the next day or so – if it wasn’t for the time difference you would have had one tonight!! 😉