Thanks everyone for your comments and emails of support. I’m very wary of turning this blog into one big pool of misery at the moment, so I’m thinking of taking a short break … I may be brighter about things tomorrow, but at the moment I’m just not coping too well emotionally. After chatting to Mum for yet another 2 hour phone call, I’ve been in tears off and on for the last couple of hours. I’m usually such an incredibly strong and positive person, but I’m really not coping too well right now … and that’s probably a big admission for me to make ‘in public’. I can usually put on a bright smiling face, but it’s just not happening right now.
I haven’t been doing much stitching – a couple of letters got added to the border of For the Birds last night trying to force myself to get back into normality again, but at the moment my head is so cluttered with ‘stuff’ that I just can’t focus on any one thing, and I’m just spending my days aimlessly … and to be honest it’s been that way a bit for the last two months. As I put it to Mum today, I think I just feel ‘overwhelmed’ right now.
Mum’s flying over on Sunday, so that’ll help to have someone here for emotional support and it’ll hopefully help me get back on a level footing again. I also feel like I’ve letting people down lately, and that’s giving me some self-imposed pressure, which I need to address for my own sake.
I’ve been trying to catch up on a few blogs over the last two days, and I’ve been doing pretty well, but I’m not commenting much at the moment. It’s helped to take my mind off things by seeing everyone’s wonderful finishes, WIP’s and new stash … at least I’m getting some sort of a stitching fix, even if it’s not with my own projects at the moment 😉
Anyway, hopefully the next time I post things will be a bit brighter … and there may even be a bit of stitching to show (For the Birds is almost finished, if nothing else). I got my blood tests done today, so hopefully that means I can have a chat to my GP at some stage next week, and I can talk things through with him as well … because the way I am at the moment I’m thinking a bit of medical intervention may in fact be in order short term … phew, another huge admission!
Thanks again for hanging in there with me – I do apologise for being such a misery of late … and I know things will be brighter very soon 🙂 If things brighten up quickly I’ll be back posting shortly, but if I’m not you know not to worry, I’m just off de-cluttering both mind and flat 😉